Admonitions of a Rhapsodist

caitlin

2007-10-31T16:36:48Z

Timmary Ennis
Sharon Gammel
English 1301
October 31, 2007

The Trail of Tears was one of the most significant examples of oppression in our country's history. The forced removal of Indians from their homelands effected many people. Over 125,000 Native Americans were forced to leave their homes east of the Mississippi River. There were many causes for this forced evacuation: the drive for American expansion, disputes along the frontier, and the enforcement of the Indian Removal Act of 1830.
Manifest destiny was pushing many people further west. There was a vast amount of seemingly free land, and not much stopping the squatters. Many pioneers would pack up, move west, and settle their new home wherever they pleased. The expansionists continually wanted to settle and colonize land further west, which usually conflicted with Indian territories. All of this vast territory, rich of resources, was being federally protected. Many tribes had made federal treaties settling disputes over their territories to make it clear with the government which places were open for expansion and which were protected. Much of this land, which would become Georgia, Alabama, and Mississippi, was prime for growing cotton. The government negotiated with many tribes and even bribed them for their property. Many gave in and ceded their land in exchange for money, later claiming that they had not understood the full meaning of their actions. Tribes were confused when they were forced to evacuate their homes.
There were many conflicts along the frontier between the pioneering frontiersman and the Indians. Disputes over land often led to physical confrontations and problems ensued. Many farmers and frontiersman complained about the Indian population; they feared for the safety of their family and land. The constant dispute over territory led to more nations ceding their land over to the government or being run out of their own territory.
The Indian Removal Act was passed in 1830. The Supreme Court actually ruled against the removal of the Cherokee nation from Georgia in the landmark case Worcester v. Georgia. John Marshall ruled in favor of the Cherokees, settling the land dispute. The decision by the Supreme Court was that Indians could not be evicted by the states if they had made a federal treaty with the government protecting their territory. However, Andrew Jackson did not want to enforce this decision. Against the court's ruling, he enforced the Indian Removal Act of 1830. Many tribes were forced from their land to move to Oklahoma. This exodus is hailed as the Trail of Tears. Despite resistance from many tribes, even the Cherokee who lasted until 1838, all of them were eventually forced to move.
The incentive of land acquisition, disputes along the frontier, and Andrew Jackson's enforcement of the Indian Removal Act all led to the seizure of Indian territories and the forced evacuation known as the Trail of Tears.

Land of the Free My Ass

2006-07-26T07:45:45Z

REAL ID

The Real ID Act requires that, in 2008, you go to the DMV and turn in your old driver's license, and be issued a "Real ID" instead. You'll need the Real ID to drive, enter federal buildings, board a plane, have a job, vote, get a bank account, ect. The Real ID is in essence a substancial invasion of your privacy and personal liberty in the name of security. Your information will be stored in a government database, and in the 'bar code' or 'chip' inside your card, and will likely be stolen by identity thieves as soon as they figure out A) how to hack into the database or B) a way to scan your card and collect the information.
Also, it will be much more difficult to GET a driver's license, since you'll need 4 forms of ID to prove your American or a legal alien, and ALL of those forms of ID will have to be checked and verified by the institution which issued it. IE, the hospital will have to verify your birth certificate. Which means it will take a LONG ass time to even get the card. The card you don't even want. But are basically forced to have in order to function in society.
Not to mention, you'll be under surveilance of the federal government. But I guess people don't mind being watched too much anymore...what with the Patriot Act and all.

And the worst part of it all is that the legislature has already GONE THROUGH on this bill. It'll go into effect in 2008. This happened a year ago, and I didn't even know about it until I researched it on my own. Thanks to the corporate media, hardly anyone knows about this, and I'm sure ANYONE in their right minds would be against it. The ONE and ONLY reason they have come up with for creating this ID card is "security from terrorists". Well, as Benjamin Franklin once said: "Anyone who trades liberty for security deserves neither liberty nor security". Amen Ben.
Of course even more scary are the people who claim this ID card is the "mark of the Beast" and just another sign that the rapture is coming...*shudders*

Oh and not to mention the very same bill basically "decrees" that big, ugly fences be put up along the border with Mexico...
*le sigh*

Does ANYONE else besides me see anything wrong with letting the government walk all over us like this? I'm sick of this country. The government sucks ass, and no one even cares enough to stop it. I think Canada sounds good, hell I'll move to fucking MEXICO before I let them give me a Real ID card. Fuck that.
I think now would be a good time for Texas to become it's own republic again...

timmy_tim_tim @ 2006-04-03T01:07:00

2006-04-03T06:11:05Z

So, I am minding my own business looking at my friends page on LJ, and suddenly i get an IM. Here is the following conversation:

hutfabrik: i say, old bean, have you seen my hat?
hutfabrik: who are you?
hutfabrik: why ahve you conatcted em again?
orange timmy: ...................
orange timmy: what the hell?
orange timmy: I mean
hutfabrik: who are you?
orange timmy: who the hell are you?
hutfabrik: havent you imed me before?
hutfabrik: you iemd me
hutfabrik: before
hutfabrik: with the same line
hutfabrik: who are you?
orange timmy: that all depends on who is asking
hutfabrik: go away
orange timmy: what!?
orange timmy: you imed me!!
hutfabrik: i dont know who you are
hutfabrik: you imed me
orange timmy: no I didn't
orange timmy: why are you telling me to go away

and that was the end of the conversation.
I am freaked out that this person thought I tried to contact them before. I am also confused that they got so defensive when I didn't know them. Weird.

Just another day

2006-04-03T05:42:58Z

Sorry I havn't updated in a while again guys. I have been somewhat busy and my internet was down for a few weeks.

Ok, State is in less than a week and I am pretty excited. I just hope nothing stands in my way. Like grades. Me and Bethaney are going to have a ball though. It is definitely worth missing prom over. Well, I think so anyway.

Oh yeah, I went to Dallas last weekend with Choir and friends and had a marvelous time. I would post some pictures, but Jaime pretty much has it covered. She was one with that camera. Its a good thing we didn't go to a waterpark.

I feel kinda weird right now. I just had a long debate over feelings, emotions and vegetables. I just dont' know what to feel over it.
Also I found out earlier today about something .......... well I don't even know how to describe it. If I barely knew the people involved I would describe it scandalous. Since I do know these people very well I think it is shocking, upsetting, appalling, and overall leaves me with, "What the fuck?!!" running through my mind. Oh and not to mention, "What were you thinking?!!" I don't even know how to react or bring it up if I should. I guess I will just set it aside for now.

Man, I think the absolute worst noise in the world (it could also be the scariest) is probably the sound effects of your parents doing the deed. I recently got traumatized by it the other night. I tried to talk to my step-sis about it today but she and her boyfriend don't think it is disturbing at all. Fuck them.

Daylight Savings is going to kick my ass.

What a sad entry. It is upsetting that I have nothing positive to say. What small joyous thing I did talk about was forced. I want to cry. Dashboard Confessional, eat my heart out.

I just wanna use your love tonight..........

2006-03-20T06:27:06Z

I am taking the time to actually update since I never do and much has happened this spring break. I dont' think any of it should be left out, so I will do it chronologically.
                                                                Spring
FRIDAY
I missed/skipped every class except 3rd. I didn't plan it, it just happened. At 5ish, Allisa and her good friend Jake flew in for 10 days in Texas. That night was spent on the river walk and just catching up with an old friend and getting to know jake.

SATURDAY
Allisa, Jake, and I left at 11 for my old town Groesbeck (small town by waco). Jake spent the majority of the car ride annoying me and I was very relieved when we actually arrived in G-town. The first few hours we spent with old friends, and eventually I got to stay with my dad for the night. Jake went to stay with an old friend of ours for a day or two so he wouldn't be bored with Allisa and I while we spent time with our dull redneck families.

SUNDAY
Allisa, Amanda, and I tried to go to church, but changed our minds at the last minute and went to visit our friend megan and her baby in a nearby town. Before that though, I locked my keys in my car. Again. I spent the rest of the day with Amanda and eventually Bowman just catching up. :) Then I spent time with my daddy.
                         break
MONDAY
Allisa and I got a late start but left at about 12:30 AM for Round Rock to meet Jake and our good friend Jarred. We chilled in Round Rock for a bit and ended up bringing Jake, Jarred, and this guy Brad with us in SA for a couple days. It was interesting. We came back home at about 5 and rested for a little while before we all got together to go to the riverwalk again. Luckily for me, Cait and Bob tagged along so I wouldn't be so annoyed with everyone. I had a shitty day thus far because I started my period and got really annoyed at Allisa for inviting 2 guys I barely know to my house for a few days when we already had 7 people staying here not counting my party of 5. Plus, Jake was driving me crazy because he is in love with Allisa but she likes Jarred and from that stemmed a crap load of stressful drama. Well, anyway, at the riverwalk, we wandered around for a time before we agreed on a restaurant to eat at and then ate the shittiest mexican food you could ever find for rediculous prices. We left feeling disappointed and scammed. We all decided to meet at the Hookah Bar but unfortunately Bob (the other driver) got lost on the way and didn't get back to us until 90 min later. It doesn't matter though because we found out that the Hookah Bar got a lot stricter recently, and wouldn't even let Allisa be on the premises even though her 18th birthday was in 3 days (so we had to cancel that idea). Also, while we were still waiting for Bob, Cait, and Brad, Jarred got a phone call and reported that our old friend Suni got hit by a train that afternoon and died. This was a huge blow to Allisa, and I that night and is still somewhat upsetting. I am over it though. I didn't cry sept when I first heard the news. I just didn't want it to ruin my break.

TUESDAY
I awoke in my sister's bed somewhat annoyed because 5 people took over my room and left me to sleep wherever I could find. I got over it though and spent the next couple of hours getting ready to go to corpus for the day with mi familia and friends. Corpus was cold and windy but really sunny. Over all it kinda sucked. We couldn't do much since it was so effing cold so the guys rented a crappy motel suite and I convinced my mom to let Allisa, Cait, and I to stay with them for the night. 3 guys and 3 girls. What a night. At first I had no interest to stay because I was sick of Jake creating drama about/with Allisa and Jarred. I was also sick of Brad because I considered him an obnoxious douche; a funny obnoxious douche, but a douche none the less. Brad had to do some serious begging to get me to stay with the girls and he ended up buying cait, Allisa, and I all matching PJs and everyone toiletries. Not to mention the apple smirnoff he got this man to buy us. I think the only reason I considered it a really fun night was because I was impaired and essentially numb to anything that would normally annoy me. All in all, it was a typical wet hot teenage spring break night. And yes, there was Truth or Dare.

WEDNESDAY
We all piled into Brad's truck to head on home from our crazy night at the beach. After we got back we all just chilled from all the driving we all did in the past few days and all the driving Brad and Jarred were about to do. Jake decided to go home early (by early, I mean, wednesday instead of sunday) because of problems with Allisa. Allisa stayed though. I watched The Rock with Jarred and then we all drove Jake to the airport. Eventually the boys left at approx. 9:00pm and us girls (now including jaime) chilled in my room until Bowman and Amanda were to arrive later that evening. We eventually made our way to IHOP and munched on pancakes. Probably one of the best times I have had at IHOP. See one of Jaime's recent LJ posts for pictures. Bowman and Amanda finally arrived at like, 2am. Everyone but jaime and cait talked for a while then dozed off to sleep.
                            'O6!!!
THURSDAY
We spent the better part of the day getting ready to go out that night. I took Jaime and Cait home for a few hours so they could shower and get ready at their own houses. Eventually Amanda, Bowman, Jaime, Allisa and I ate at Red Robin for Allisa's Birthday. yey! :) Amazing food. Definitely the best food I ate all week. After this, we migrated to the Shisha Cafe (because they are more lenient than the Hookah Bar about underage customers). This was such an awesome night because of all the hilarious stories we shared. Post that, we picked up cait and went to my house for some delicious butterfly cake and vodka courtesy of mi madre. But we didn't get throwed.

FRIDAY
At Allisa's request, Bowman, Amanda, Allisa and I got up fairly early and drove back to Groesbeck for Suni's funeral. We made it there in great timing but the funeral sucked. Then again, it was hard for me to say that since I dont' know what to expect from a funeral. I am just not good at dealing with the whole concept of a dead friend. I can't really explain it. But to sum it up, I don't ever seem to feel anything after I first find out. It just doesn't hit me. Anyway, it was a long day. At least we got free Dairy Queen at the end of it. Some St. Patty's day. Actually, when we finally got home (at like, 11:45 pm) we tried to make the best of things and get Allisa drunk with us for the first time. It did't work though. We didn't even get buzzed.

SATURDAY
We wanted to have a blast on our last day together and tried to do as much as we could. We went to the dollar theatre and saw Crash. (amazing movie!) We went to the riverwalk (again!) and got lost (again!). We went home and tried to get throwed (again!) and it didn't happen (again!). Well, Bowman got kinda plastered, but Allisa, Amanda, and I didn't feel a thing. You probably think we are all pathetic for trying to get wasted every day this break. The only reason we wanted to at all was because Allisa, Amanda, Bowman, and I are all best friends and Allisa and Amanda hadn't drank at all before. It was just going to be a funny memorable experience and the only reason we did it three nights in a row was because it wasn't working every time we tried. At least Allisa had her first time on Tuesday. Oh, that was memorable!

SUNDAY (today)
we all just chilled till Allisa had to leave at 5:20. I made them watch Boondock Saints and I think it dind't live up to their expectations. Allisa is back in Utah now and I think Bowman and Amanda are back in Groesbeck and I am still in the process of cleaning my poor room that endured a weeks worth of partying. Things are back to normal in the life of timmary. Spring Break was spectacular and I can't wait for summer.

Wooooooooooooooooooo

2006-02-28T06:36:25Z

We're goin' to state!!!!!!!!!!

thats right, folks. that popular exclamation actually applies to me now! Thanks to those two bitch-ass projects that I slaved over those 5 monthes or so. Yep. At VASE this past weekend I competed with both of them and got top marks for both and both advanced to state along with 29 other people from all over the area. I did not see this coming. I would be lying if I said I wasn't pleased. Coolest part is that Bethaney is going to state with me! ! Be sure and congratulate her when you see her. Now then, what is state you ask? Well state is pretty much the next level where I along with many other young aspiring artists congregate and compete on april 7th and 8th in Austin, or Houston, or Dallas (obviously I am unsure about the location). Whats that you ask? Isn't that the same dates as prom? Why, yes, I believe it is! How funny! Now, what am I to do about this sort of predicament? Seriously guys, I don't know. For now, I am not going to prom because of the conflicting dates. Maybe I can get out of it. We shall see.

I don't know if I technically deserve to go to state. The reason my crap pieces succeeded was the simple fact that I was competeing in the drawing II level. With my, um, talent, I should technically be in drawing III or IV. So under this logic, I don't think it is fair. However, even though I do have talent, I have never taken a drawing class before this one. Everything I have is self-taught. Even in SAY Si I did everything else but drawing. I took art in middle school where we did some drawing, but I slacked off a lot and didn't produce anything like my recent work. Like, I said before, I am almost entirely self-taught. Is it fair that I go to state? According to common curriculum i should be in art I; but based on talent I should be in art IV. I can't decide if I should be pleased or ........ guilty (?). Best thing to do is accept it with pride for my accomplishments and write it on my resume. My problem is how little of a proud person I am.

I havn't updated in a while before this entry on account of my busy schedule and twisted bipolar internet. This past week was filled with............well, I dont' know what it was filled with, but it sure wasnt' sleep. I pulled THREE all-nighters last week. THREE. One on sunday night, and two more on thurs. and fri. nights. I am going to make a vow right here and right now: I am never going to go more than 24 hours without sleep unless I am forced into it. I feel like i am still recovering from all of it. The reason I did it was because I had to finish the color pencil drawing of me in a weeks time. I needed that time that could've been wasted sleeping.
Monday was absolute hell on earth. Mostly because of work. I dont' really want to talk about it because it will only anger me. But my night got better because I spent the rest of my evening with Raya, Jaime, and Megan. Thanks TAKS! I really did have fun on tuesday with everyone. I even won a mug! Lucky me! Laterz I spent lots of time with eric dorsa, asis, and brittany awesomeface quinterro.
Wednesday I stayed home from school and worked on the drawing.
Thursday Asis and I skipped 5th and made our glorious way to the wonderful land called central market. That was an experiance and a half.
Friday I wandered around school aimlessly because I missed my appointment with mr. sandman. AND since I still wasnt' finished with the project I couldn't stand to look at any longer I had to cancel my appointment with him again on friday. I was a sight on saturday.
After all of the VASE bs, I finally got to sleep to my hearts content (approx. 8 hrs.). Then Asis, Bethaney, Jordon, and I all went to le hookah cafe since beth and asis just had birthdays. The verdict: asis hates it and bethaney loves it.

To sum up the night, Asis, Nick, Cali and I had a grand time together at starbucks and cal's house. Sweet and simple.

Working with the french

2006-01-24T08:28:16Z

Brief update:
Work was actually pretty interesting today. It wasn't really busy, so we got to go home early (12:20ish). But thats besides the point. Tony Parker and Eva Longoria came in today. It was bizzarre. This was my very first encounter with a famous person. Aside from the Guns n' Roses thing. I didn't get to talk to them or anything. It was just really cool. Also, Eva Longoria isn't THAT pretty in real life. And she is really really short.
My co-workers are insane. We have a chef and a dishwasher who are both extremely french. They are hilarious and are always laughing. I think they are rooomates too. Mo (the chef) shouts out crazy and off the wall things in a heavy french accent every 30 seconds. I swear. He has his own nicknames for all of us. I am either blondie or girl or irish girl. My friend Yumi is tequito because she doesn't speak english. And he will just yell, "Tequito!!!!!" and laugh at the top of his lungs every minute or so. He also sings badly to all the easy listening and soft rock songs they play on the radio. Every time I walk in the back (which is often) he always says, "I scare you girl? HAHAHAHAHA!!!!" I have no idea where this came from, but it is kinda funny. I can't remember the other guy's name but he is really nice too. But most of the time I have no idea what he is trying to tell me. It is really awkward. I usually just shrug my shoulders and say, "Je ne se pas" since this is pretty much all I know in french. I think Mo and the other guy are making fun of me most of the time. I don't know for sure because I dont' know what they are saying. I know they were making all kinds of jokes about tony parker when he came in. So bizarre. Oi va. That's the entertainment I get from work. Not bad, eh?

2 in the morning. So tired. See ya tomorrow.

Lots of rantings

2006-01-23T05:18:16Z

Friday I went to Matt and Lindsey's totally badass birthday party. I had such a blast. I am glad I made jaime go too. I don't think I stopped laughing the entire time I was there. I am glad I am better friends with these people now. These people are the mad ones. The kind of people jack kerouac writes about in that famous quote from On the Road. And they are the only kind for me. (That was probably the cheesiest thing I have ever written in my entire life.)

A friend of mine really really likes another friend of mine. I really hope something happens between them. The only thing that could mess it up would be if the guy decides to be stupid and pass up an opportunity.

Theatre makes me hate my life. Maybe I should make that into a t-shirt?

Yesterday was really really bad. I got up at 7:20am to make it to Saturday school at 8am; which I did by the way. Thats right folks, I am going to graduate. (haha, I thought of you jaime when I wrote "folks") After I left at about 12:30 I went home where my mom told me more depressing things and I found myself wishing I was somewhere sunny and happy. At 7pm, I had work. Ugh. I didn't get off until 2 in the fucking morning. At least I got paid for it. That was how my effing saturday was spent. By myself. Now it is sunday, which got wasted because I didn't wake up until 3 in the afternoon and watched I love the 80's because no one could or would do anything.

I am in this state of depression that confuses me. I have so much on my mind. I hate the time that I am in right now. I have so much to look forward to, but they are so far away. I have to concentrate on now, today. But every time I do, I get really........sad. Some of the things that I am excited about:
Aerosmith on wednesday
Skynard and other bands at the rodeo
Spring Break (sorta)
Prom (I guess this is something to look forward to)
Fiesta (how can anyone not be excited about this time? Our school gives us days off just so we can go and party and eat. Not to mention Niosa! too bad it may not live up to last years, but I am still excited)
Graduation and the week before it

Little thoughts:
I miss adriana.
I love jaime's hair.
I am debating about staying in theatre.
Why am I so good at breaking hearts?
Myspace hates me.
I don't look good as any other ethnicity.
Allisa might (hopefully) move in with me.
I wish I had more confidence in myself. Well, you know, aside from the confidence I have that I act like an idiot.
Not going to blue and white but I hope to do something else really fun.

February is the shittiest month of the year, and it is almost here. I am going to hate my life soon. What is there to look forward to in February? Don't say Valentines day or I will shank your ass right here and right now. No one likes valentines day because it only reminds people that they don't have anyone to share it with. The stupid holiday makes me want to become a Jehovah's witness just so I can have an excuse not celebrate it. It is Single's Awareness Day, thats what it is. Valentines day makes me hate everything. Especially those who are happy on that day. Anyway, February has only one good thing, and that is the semi-good concerts at the rodeo. Now that I am about to move, I have something else to dread about the stupid month. Aside from the weather.

My mom wrote my stepdad a letter about the breakup and asking him what was really going to happen between them and telling him what she thought about everything ever. It wasn't a hate letter, it was one of concern and love. I mean, my mom had no intention to break up with him; he just walked out one day and didn't come back. Well, he wrote a very cold, untrue, and mean letter back to my mom. He told her that he thought she never loved him through the entire relationship, and he thought she was a horrible and selfish and self-centered person who should pretty much go back to the kitchen and not ask questions. He also said the only reason he left her was the tone of voice she had when they got in the fight. Yeah. The good thing that came from the letter is that my mom realized how messed up my stepdad is in the head and she doesn't have any remorse about the breakup whatsoever and is totally ready to move on without looking back. She is taking it extremely well in fact. Despite my mother's positive attitude, I feel rather melancholy. In the letter, Louis also wrote that he thinks I have emotional and mental problems and I am just like Damien and will end up like him. I know I should automatically think this statement is total BS, but it bothers me. I get really sad that someone who I looked up to more than my own father thinks I am insane and will be an angry, self-hating asshole addicted to every drug ever. Reading the other things he said that are obviously wrong and clearly the words of someone insane, I should automatically disreguard this statement too, right? But I can't stop thinking about it. I feel like I didn't know him at all. Because if he didn't care about my mom in their 4 year relationship, he sure as hell didn't care about me. I try not to think about it, I really do. But my mom talks about everything all the fucking time. I hate being home.

I just realized how hateful this entry is or sounds. Sorry. I'm really not trying to hate on everybody.

Confessions at 5 am

2006-01-16T11:17:50Z

I just arrived back at my house from a night of just hangin' out with the group. I had some great conversations with those I rarely even talk to. I feel closer to people now. (uh, I know that sounds REALLY cheesy. work with me here) I also received some very helpful advice and in the process learned that I share the same feelings about certain things as a couple other people. T'was very enlightening and interesting. :)

I am in a confusing position at the moment involving a specific person. I am pretty sure they like me (even after all this time), but I don't like them. Things are really awkward. I don't have any feelings for this person at all whatsoever. Shoot, I don't even think I want to be involved with anyone because of all the stress and extra problems with my family right now.

Friday night I attended the STECO show at the White Rabbit. Once again, the boys did really well and it was really fun to hang out with the group again (including the amazing Nick Pino). The cd is so relaxing to listen to and not to mention awesome cause your like, "Hey, I know these guys!" while jamming in your car. Oh yeah, here is a special shout out for Jeff since he gave me $3 so I could acquire the "album". I am not sure if he did it for me or for the band. Probably for the band. Eh, who cares? I got a cd!

I think I am going to have to watch Robin Hood Men in Tights again.

When I came home from the Hookah Cafe (where I was earlier tonight) I finished this anime doll of Jaime I started before I actually left for Cody's (that is why I was late. again.).

Doesn't it look like her!? It kind of took a while so you better appreciate it. Oh and if you click on it I think it takes you to the website where you can view the animated version of it. Or in other words: the better version of it. I am pretty proud of it. =)

I saw Eston at the Hookah cafe and we got to talking about our jobs and such. When I mentioned how much mine sucks he suggested that I work with him at Liberty Bar off of 281 and Josephine. See, La Madeleine sucks because I work harder than a waitress or hostess but I receive next to nothing in tips. At Liberty Bar I would make so much more. But the thing is, it's a bar. I don't know how keen i am about working that sort of environment. My mom does it, so I know the dangers and such; I don't know if I want to worry about all that during my second (almost first) job. Also, if I worked there I might end up hanging out with eston and his crowd outside of work which, to me, would suck. I don't know if I want to do that again. There are reasons why I don't anymore. Meh, maybe I am overanalizing it. That is just what I think. On the bright side, I would rather work in a bar with a friend. AND it is close to SAY Si.
Ugh, speaking of SAY fucking Si, I have 2 projects to do in about 2 weeks and I havn't really started either one. I hate the february show. We always do something stupid. It is because they make us use paper as our main medium. Yeah, it sounds cool, but it isn't when they give us projects like, "What is your passion?" and expect us to have an immediate idea. Could that get more vague and broad? Doubtful.
Sorry about the rambling. Time to make like a tree and get the fuck out of here! (Boondock Saints anyone?)

sometimes it just happens

2006-01-03T06:39:37Z

Today and last night was really fun because I got to spend it with some really good friends, but I am not allowed to talk about it.
After that, I went to work at 6 until 11:40. Ugh. I am on bus duty and it blows. The worst part is stooping over the tables and worsening my back problems. Also, my manager tells me I am not going to get switched out for a few weeks. Guess I got to tough it out. At least I have a friend to distract me.

My new years resolution (my first ever) is to be punctual, or in other words, avoid tardiness. I guess we will see how it works out in 8.5 hours. I really don't want to go back to school. The break has been great to me. But I guess it won't be so bad......

Off to concieve some thoughts with silver linings on a giant pillow.

Ticking away the moments that make up the dull day..........

2006-01-02T03:09:11Z

It's nine o' clock and I havn't been this bored in a long long long long time. It is one thing to be bored simply because you don't feel like joining in all the fun or whatever that your friends are partaking in. It is another thing to be bored and have no idea what your friends are doing or where they are. That last one is my situation. I had a really boring day altogether and it is only getting worse. I seriously feel like the only person in existence right now. Sept Talyn and Eric (and lemme tell you, if this really was true, I would LOATHE being the last one on this planet of ours besides them. *shudder*) Seriously though, not a single person is online. Everyone has their away messages up. Spooky........ AND no one is answering their phones.
Bordem is a killer.

Finding a cure,
Timmary.

PS: HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Is is worse not to date at all ever or to date for a fling or for the entertainment and title?

2005-12-30T05:56:56Z

For the love of God..........................
All of my music got deleted from my computer. There were no survivors. I don't think I can go on. It was bad enough when I lost my CD case. Now I have nothing to live for.

=) Had a very nice conversation with a good friend. A dependable friend. In other words I feel much better.

I am trying to download my music back. I hate it when I type up something in the search box- like Echoes: The Best of Pink Floyd- and I get a bunch of things like "hot young twinks giving handjobs to a bear", or "True Canadian beaver gets entertained by fatty dildo". Gahhhh, I feel dirty just writing that. But how did that come from my original search? It wasn't like beaver or pussy was in the title. Stupid porn.

I had lunch at EZ's with Jaime and Ash today (or I guess yesterday) and I believe it was one of the best meals I had in a long time. Has anyone had their shakes? They are amazing! I mean, they are kind of overpriced, but it might actually be worth it. Oh, and by overpriced I mean $4 for a shake the same size of "small" at Sonic. But, they are amazing...........

**********THIS IS SPINAL TAP**********
[Nigel is playing a soft piece on the piano]
Marty DiBergi: It's very pretty.
Nigel Tufnel: Yeah, I've been fooling around with it for a few months.
Marty DiBergi: It's a bit of a departure from what you normally play.
Nigel Tufnel: It's part of a trilogy, a musical trilogy I'm working on in D minor which is the saddest of all keys, I find. People weep instantly when they hear it, and I don't know why.
Marty DiBergi: It's very nice.
Nigel Tufnel: You know, just simple lines intertwining, you know, very much like - I'm really influenced by Mozart and Bach, and it's sort of in between those, really. It's like a Mach piece, really. It's sort of...
Marty DiBergi: What do you call this?
Nigel Tufnel: Well, this piece is called "Lick My Love Pump".
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Derek Smalls: We're lucky.
David St. Hubbins: Yeah.
Derek Smalls: I mean, people should be envying us, you know.
David St. Hubbins: I envy us.
Derek Smalls: Yeah.
David St. Hubbins: I do.
Derek Smalls: Me too.
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David St. Hubbins: It's such a fine line between stupid, and clever.
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David St. Hubbins: Well, I'm sure I'd feel much worse if I weren't under such heavy sedation.
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David St. Hubbins: Dozens of people spontaneously combust each year. It's just not really widely reported.
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Nigel Tufnel: It's like, how much more black could this be? and the answer is none. None more black.
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Nigel Tufnel: The numbers all go to eleven. Look, right across the board, eleven, eleven, eleven and...
Marty DiBergi: Oh, I see. And most amps go up to ten?
Nigel Tufnel: Exactly.
Marty DiBergi: Does that mean it's louder? Is it any louder?
Nigel Tufnel: Well, it's one louder, isn't it? It's not ten. You see, most blokes, you know, will be playing at ten. You're on ten here, all the way up, all the way up, all the way up, you're on ten on your guitar. Where can you go from there? Where?
Marty DiBergi: I don't know.
Nigel Tufnel: Nowhere. Exactly. What we do is, if we need that extra push over the cliff, you know what we do?
Marty DiBergi: Put it up to eleven.
Nigel Tufnel: Eleven. Exactly. One louder.
Marty DiBergi: Why don't you just make ten louder and make ten be the top number and make that a little louder?
Nigel Tufnel: [pause] These go to eleven.
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David St. Hubbins: I do not, for one, think that the problem was that the band was down. I think that the problem *may* have been, that there was a Stonehenge monument on the stage that was in danger of being *crushed* by a *dwarf*. Alright? That tended to understate the hugeness of the object.
Ian Faith: I really think you're just making much too big a thing out of it.
Derek Smalls: Making a big thing out of it would have been a good idea.
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What an amazing movie. It entertained Bob and I earlier today. And as a result, I felt the need to do some quoting.

I guess that concludes my silly little entry for the day.

Hopelessly devoted,
Timmary

p.s. I hate boys.

Please give me a towel mr. tangerine speedo!

2005-12-26T23:09:50Z

So much to tell, and so little time!
In the beginning, school let out and there was much joy in the land. Then shadow fell upon the house of Ennis/Faraklas when Senor Faraklas decided to split the families up for good. This was the start of a very dark time for the Ennis' of that house on that day which was saturday. Now for a more organized account of the past week and a half:
The last week of school was rockin because on wednesday, thursday, and friday I spent the night at Jaime's. Love that girl. And her totally fun seester tooo.
Friday: I went to my interview at la Madeleine and got the job. Then to Starbucks a la Barnes & Noble to visit Steven on his last day. :( Then I went home to rid myself of the exhaustion that consumed me. Tried to sleep, didn't happen, so Jaime and Christina picked me up and we went to Jaime's to have a small party. To sum it up, Ben, Patrick, Justin, Andy, Ilya, Richard, Cody, and Jeff all showed up and later Jaime injured both her and Ilya's car's. (Pardon me if I forgot your name) Oh, and I spent the night.

Saturday: I came home at about 4:30 only to find that my stepdad left us about 30 minutes before I got there. I consoled my mom for a few hours until she went to work. I then proceeded to mope around the house in a dubious way until I decided to make an appearance at Natalie's party at about 11:00. I stayed for about 45 minutes until Justin, Andy, Cash and Kristen and I departed to explore the tunnels under Wells Fargo, we decided to post pone that for a better date and went our separate ways. I went to Jaime and Kayla's and made cookies, watched Empire Records, and stayed the night.

Sunday: I went home early so that Jaime and Kayla could clean house for their parents return from their 5-day trip to Dallas. I can't remember what I did that day but later on at about 7ish I went to Kandis' (spelling?) birthday party with pretty much everyone. Had loads of fun and eventually I went home where Jaime spent the night.

Monday: (Took me forever to remember this>>) Ok, Monday Jaime went home early like she always does and I went shopping with my mom and Talyn. Saw Patrick at Old Navy and locked my keys in my car. After getting the spare and picking up jaime, we all went to Rolling oaks for some shopping. Saw Nikki, got some stuff done, and Jaime and I decided not to go swing dancing with the gang and went hot tubing at Ben's with Cody, Richard, Christina, Andy, and (obviously) Ben. Post-hot-tubing was Team America at Cody's. And after Cody dropped Jaime and I off at my house, Kayla promptly kidnapped us right after and we all went to Jack-in-the-Box. Then I went home and so did they.

Tuesday: I pretty much did nothing at all until about 9 when I invited Caitlin over to stay the night. I showed her how great Empire Records is, and did something after that, but I don't remember.

Wednesday: Caitlin and I went to Central Market and bought a coffee cake and about 6 Jones sodas since she never had them before. We ate them at Jaime's and fed some of the cake to the ducks. Then we returned to my house and BSed all day until about 9 when Caitlin, Misty, and I went to see The Chronicles of Narnia. Eh, it was alright. Anyway, it was really late and we figured the only place open was IHOP; so that is where we went. Words of advice: Don't get an omelet with chicken (especially fajita style) in it. Caitlin got her order screwed up about 4 times and got chocolate chip pancakes for free. We had a long ass conversation about how much we hate anime and went home to make fun of the movie Ella Enchanted. That movie, by the way, is the worst movie out there besides House of Wax, and Theodore Rex. Oh yeah, and Caitlin stayed the night again.

Thursday: I got up early to go to orientation at 10 which consisted of filling out loads of paper work, watching some video, and getting my uniform. I sat around all day after that until about 5ish when Caitlin and I met Bob and Raya at Rolling oaks for more shopping. T'was loads of fun. Then we all met up at the Quarry to go to James Avery for Raya and visited Shannon at her work. Then we all ate at EZ's where Caitlin pretty much made my vacation by scrapping with a 13 year old.
In the end, we all went to Raya's for a while. Then we returned to the Quarry for Starbucks. Then home for sleep. Oh yeah and Caitlin stayed over yet again. :) haha.

Friday: I took Caitlin home and at about 8ish I went to Adriana's for a small get together involving Ash, Nick, Kayla, Christina, and later Cody when we went to The Hookah Cafe. Yeah, it was great.

Saturday: Cody, Jeff, and I braved the mall and actually went shopping. It wasn't that bad believe it or not. I bought my mom a frog and a gecko. =)
But then I got in a fight with my mom and went to bed kinda early.

Christmas day: A pretty lame day. I got in another fight with my mom over pretty much the same reasons when I woke up. I did almost nothing until about 1ish. Got almost nothing for Christmas; at least nothing I asked for. Um, did lots of nothing all day. Pretty sad. And later my neighbor's (who are practically family) got in a big fight and we had to work as mediators.

Today: Nothing.

I know this was a boring account of what happened but in reality my break has been pretty great. Surprisingly. The worst day so far was Christmas day, and I think it only sucked because it already has such high standards and anything remotely shitty on that day goes double. Regardless, I hope everyone had a holly, jolly one!
To end the day, I want to do something away from my house for hours and hours. I got 13 hours of sleep, have only been awake for 3 hours, and I am ready to go!
Call Timmary! She isn't busy!

Christmas from Hell

2005-12-20T20:55:22Z

What a horrible christmas. Saturday I come home only to find out that 30 minutes preceding my arrival Louis/My stepfather spontaneously decided to move out and leave my mom, giving up on his relationship with her and pretty much everyone else. Since that day everything has been going in a downward spiral. My mom cries off and on everyday; the house looks like hell; no one knows what the hell is going to happen; my mom doesn't even want to finish decorating the house/tree because in about a month we have to move. (That was my plan today, to finish putting the decorations on the tree, wrap the presents and what not, but my mom said no because she told me it was pointless if we are going to put everything away in less than a week later. WTF?!) I don't want to move and pack up everything again (some things I still haven't unpacked from my last move) and stuff it all into storage again while leaving the house I am so attached to. What if Louis sells the house (it is the only thing he actually owns between my mom and him) and some kid ends up living in it the way I used to. I would be so depressed. Truthfully, that is the last of my worries. I just wish I knew what was going to happen to us all. Will Louis ever come back? What exactly are we doing for christmas? When are we moving exactly? Are we ever going to see Daniella, and the kids again? Am I supposed to pretend things are normal? I am really freaking out here and I must say I am totally sick of all this B.S. I have had to constantly endure my entire life. That's right, this is definitely not the first time. With Louis, this is about the 15th time. It happened with my dad before him, and my step-dad before him. I long for security. Just when I think I can finally at least pretend I have a normal life, it gets erased and someone draws a big ? in place of it all. The only thing left to do is to keep on truckin'. Gosh, I can't even have a "farewell house party". Christmas sucks a little harder this year.
By the way, I won't move out of the district, so no fear. I can't promise you I will be a happy child though. Too bad I am not going far far away for Christmas this year.
Trying to make the best of it all,
Timmary
I wish Wedding Crashers was out on video now. I need a pick-me-up.

Oh yeah, I am working at La Madeline now. yey.

Ho hum

2005-12-15T10:17:52Z

To start, Monday was my LJ aniversary. YEY! yeah, I read my first couple journals and...........wow. I was ........ gosh I don't even know how to describe it. I won't say I was a complete idiot, but I was ........ see I still don't know. Maybe I just come off weird because I was new to LJ and was getting the feel of it all. I did write the longest uncut entry in all of history though. What an idiot. I can't believe how much one can change in one year. I didn't even know it was that big of a difference. I still can't grasp it. It feels the same. Only different.

I should be doing this take home exam thing for peer tutoring that involves answering four questions in essay form about what you do in the class and such. This is a problem for me because I didn't even get to tutor hardly any kids at all in class. All I did was grade papers, run errands, and do homework. I know what you are going to say, and you should know that I can't jsut make it up. The questions are like this: "Describe three new concepts that you have learned about the subject area in the class that you tutor or assist." I don't know how to answer that even if I did actually do what I was supposed to do. I will just talk to Ms. Noble and see if I can possibly not fail the class. Not that I need the class but, well, you know.
so hungry. no food. =(
I can't wait for friday! I can't wait to go to sleep forever!
this is such a bad entry. I blame it on my brain's lack of rest; basically it can't think clearly right now.
See.......you...........tomorrow.....I mean.....later........*yawn*

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I was about to try and sleep on jaime's couch (since I hate the floor) and couldn't since there is an infomercial for Wild Party Girls on and I have absolutly no clue how to turn off her TV. I would hate to wake a sleeping jaime. They look so peaceful. So here I am. I guess I can just do as much work as possible.
I can't believe it is 4:30. Oi va. I may be a zombie tomorrow. YEAH WHATEVER!

Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away, now it looks as though they're here to stay

2005-12-10T05:17:18Z

Hmmmm, I am contemplating an update.

Ok, so today was a day of mixed reviews. I give it:. (The fourth star is only because I am alive and my parents are back together; therefore I am not moving. I guess in a sense there should be a fifth star since that is kind of big good news.) I actually had a lot of good things happen to me today. Like that last note. I also was on time today (sorta), and Mrs. G. was actually nice to us and we did next to zero. We didn't even have to turn in our Homework. But the day ended with a crash and burn finale. The school day that is.
Reason #1 that completely ruined what little happiness I saved inside: I skipped 7th (peer tutoring) to work on my essay for Ms. Willis. You know, the essay that is half of my english final; the important one. Well I did the entire thing during 7th and actually went a little into overtime. I was quickly saving it to a floppy disc of mine so I can get to class swiftly 9since I was already 10 minutes late at this time) and about 6 seconds after I clicked Save, that effing window popped up that read: This is an illegal operation and will have to close. WTF?!!!! Yes, that is right, it shut the bitch down before I was able to save it. No more english final. Needless to say, I was......... a little agitated, aggravated, and infuriated. Shock consumed me most though. I didn't know what else to do so I went to class anyway without it and that 90 minutes of my life.
Reason #2 that dashed my meager amount of elation against the rocks of despair: Mi madre informed me today that Venus' original owner, Patrice- a good friend of the family, wants Venus back. After all we did keep Venus as a favor. A favor that lasted for 1.5 years. I am going to miss her so much. She is my favorite dog. Things just arn't going to be the same without her. I mean, I know she isn't dead or anything, and I will still get to see her; but it just isn't the same. I am so depressed over this I don't know what I am going to do. PMS is already upon me. I mean, she is leaving tomorrow, I don't even get to spend that much time with her before she goes. ;( Another thing pet related: My mom also told me Harry is getting really old and may not be with us much longer. EVERYONE IS LEAVING ME! Harry has been with us for 8 friggen years. 8 years! He is like a sibling or something. Only better because he has unconditional love. Quite unlike Talyn. I will be devastated if he passes on to the big prairie in the sky. I just need someone to hold me right now.
Reason #3 that deflated my minute balloon of bliss: After school, feeling rather upset and deflated already because of english, I was suggesting to Gina about returning to Elf Louise and Dave & Busters in an attempt to make it an annual ordeal and to brighten my mood. She told me she was too busy and wouldn't be able to make it at all this year. Sigh. It was at this moment that I realized things just arn't going to be the same as last year. People have changed and I am stupid and immature for trying to hold on to the past. I just keep hoping someone will snap back into their old self and give me a few hours of a high off their wonderful personalities that cease to exist simply because of their usual company. I remember I used to wonder why all the seniors were so seclusive and about as outgoing as a bag of hammers. I now know it is because no one can go back in the past to they way things used to be and no one wants to make 50 friends they are just going to leave in a few months. Or, maybe it is just me.
I know it is a really depressing entry. Well you know what, I am feeling really depressed so you can just shut up! Maybe even eat my shorts. I don't know...........

Just so you know, I havn't been this way during the whole day, or even since school ended. I have actually had short bursts of gaiety here and there; cause you know, that is what happens when you PMS. These occur when I am around someone I rarely get to see. Even when they are in a bad mood.
People who inspire delight (in order of appearance):
Jaime (yes, I don't see her enough!)
Solomon
Calli
Jack
Shannon
Rosie
Caitlin
Mommy
Steven
Cash

mmmmmm, friends.

One last bitch: Saturday School. If that isn't a bitch, I don't know what is.

In an attempt to end on a positive note, the choir concert rocked. Those who didn't go are damned to spend an eternity listening to Striper or The Osmunds while someone rubs your stomach slowly with sandpaper which oddly makes the smell of silly putty.

Those who throw objects at the crocodiles will be asked to retrieve them.

2005-12-05T05:40:02Z

I am about to attempt an update. Every time I try my computer decides to shut me off the internet and laugh at me. I then give up. Yeah, I am a quitter. You wanna make somethin of it?! Hey, has anyone noticed that at the top of the LJ page - where it has all the Christmas stuff- the window in the scene has that weird hill from Nightmare Before Christmas? I just noticed it. Kinda cool. Oh, and a goat is at the front of the team of reindeer. AND a Hanukkah candelabra is on the fireplace mantel above the hanging stockings. hahaha.

Friday was wonderous and grand. First friday was pretty successful and fulfilling in my perspective. Jaime finally got to go (with permission might I add); the boys met us and we all explored Jive and recieved words of encouragement; SO GAY and Je suis stoned; saw a Johnny Depp clone; taco C; and cloud watching at 12 AM. Le Fin

Saturday was......pretty lame. Saturday school from 8 to 1 and then I pretty much laid around the house and did........... nothing. BUT I did get about 44 of the 50 questions from that damned gov't packet done at saturday school. So the day wasn't all wasted.

Today was however.
Timmary = uninspired

Why doesn't anyone update anymore? That is the reason why I am updating so much latly; it is pathetic. We arn't makeing quota people!


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2005-12-04T08:08:30Z


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2005-12-02T21:11:31Z

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Guess what I want for Christmas?

2005-12-01T09:09:15Z

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

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Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
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Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
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Wealth	\|\|\|\|	16%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
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Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
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Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	57%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
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I do not have a Peter pan Complex!
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Today was lovely. I little crazy and active though. Wow I can't believe it is 2 in the morning. Eh oh well.
I FINALLY finished that stupid hand project. I was getting so frustrated with that thing. I just didn't want to take the time to work on it; and I can only do it in certain lighting.......it was just a burden. I am sure Ms. Barajas is going to pin it up in one of the display cases in the C wing. I still maintain that it isn't finished; I can still do a lot of work on it. I was just sick of worrying about it. Besides I need the grade.
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Today was active and pretty insane because I drove all over SA and probably used half a tank of gas. Where did I go? Well I went home right after school, then to my interview at Bath and Body Works at 5:30 at Rolling Oaks; at about 6:20 I voyaged onward to SAY Si so I can pick up my project and work on it here. On my wayward home I stopped at Barnes and Noble to work on my blasted gov't and drink some rich coffee. While I was there I (as usual) met many of my fellow comrades of the MacArthur Court. I encountered (in order of appearance) Sir Alex and his companion Lady Kaysee (I am not sure I spelled that right); I was also privileded to convene with Sir Eric once again (for this be his normal habitat) along with Lady Fataine with Lady Natalie accompanying her on her travels. Lady Lauren of the Dorsey Clan also graced us with her presence and introduced me to Lady Jennifer whom is courting Sir Nowlin. And of course Sir Steven of the house of Turner was serving us his lovely beverages. T'was an enjoyable evening. Ok that is enough of that. It really was fun though. Fetain is really nice to talk to. Man, why couldn't I have known that when we sat next to each other in english last year? That goes for Bethaney too.
After I left B & N at about 10 I popped in Cody's because I needed to treat my Cody withdrawls. I was privileged to an awesome conversation and was educated on Cream. Oh, and of course just the very presence of Cody made my evening! ;) PURSE PURSE PURSE
After such a long day I didn't actually return home until 11:30. Oi. Here I am now. Wasting my life away on PURSE PURSE PURSE PURSE Live Journal. This is why I need a job. PURSE PURSE PURSE
Thanksgiving break was great by the way. I made this really quaint and informative entry about everything the other day only for my damned computer to shut me out of the internet. Sometimes it can be the dirtiest whore. ugh. Anyway, I spent practically the entire break "adventuring" with Ben, Andy, Christina, Alex, Jaime and co. Only one day, maybe, didn't contain them; that was Thanksgiving day (by the way was absolutely
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Over the break I tried hookah for the first time. I have concluded that I have nice, big lungs; and rose hookah and raspberry hookah sucks. It is nice to finally do some of my 18-year-old privileges.
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My mom woke me up on Saturday telling me to go get a job. Bath and Body Works and Sonic are the best I can come up with right now. I will take ANY suggestions. If you find me a good job I can then afford to buy you a christmas gift! Help a sister out.
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A few little last notes:
1. Theatre sucks pretty much all the time
2. Green bean casserole and those croissants are the best part of thanksgiving
3. I am starting to obsess over Pink Floyd
4. Certain members of the opposite sex induce me with worry and aggravate me with mystery; not to mention the confusion, puzzlement, and frustration I have to endure.
5. I live in a construction site.
6. Asis, Jaime, and I have a bad-ass choir concert on the 8th which you WILL be attending. Jk, you don't have to go.
7. I have an art show at first friday this friday at SAY Si of course
8. My mom and Louis are having relationship issues. I fear breakup.

timmy_tim_tim @ 2005-11-29T21:03:00

2005-11-30T03:54:11Z

I have no idea what photo to use for the "candid shot" for the senior slide show. I did however find an awesome baby picture. So help me vote on the best ones or else!!!!! [shakes fist]

sorry some of these are sideways:

#1

#2

#3 (I don't even know why I made these last two options)

#4

#5

Oh, and of course my icon picture. I didn't have the energy to copy, save, and paste and save again and paste again. #6

That is pretty much it. Thanks y'all!

TIMMARY'S MAGNIFICENT PHOTO ENTRY

2005-11-23T01:55:39Z

This is my totally awesome picture post of the school year! Enjoy!

Best person ever!

Ahh! Sun!

Asis!

Theatre boys

Jaime and Man

The CeJ and Liz

ADRIANA!

Allisa suprising me with her presence on my birthday at Jaime's

The BIG surprise!

Everyone was there!

Um, Joe.

Ahhhhhnold!

Ahhh! Scary!

The general crowd with stupid horny angel.

The Godfather.

What?! Cortney Love and George Harrison are an item?!

partay!

Such a great night.

everyone looks so good.

he wears short shorts

that angel is radiating with .......something

The face that launched a thousand costumes.

my boys

TAKE IT OFF!!!!!!!!!!!

nice coconuts

the three amigas

WHOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! PARTY WITH ME WILLY!

Me little sister and the horse

Gods Gifts

Fetaine is a pregnant hobo!

Aparently Richard is in that gorilla

haha, Andy is a mailman.

what a bum.

Look at my beaver!

Crazy Asian

Cashtina!

Me being goofy

Me being normal. GUM!

Fin.

I know I bitch a lot........

2005-11-11T06:56:10Z

This was something Cody's entry reminded me of:
At SAY Si! today there was a representative from Kansas City school of Arts. I have been considering applying (at least) to an art college and this seemed perfect because it is much cheaper and closer than Rhode Island or Chicago. But the thing is, I havn't done hardly any of the things that are required as far as my portfolio goes for this college. Or any college for that manner. It occurred to me that I might not be able to get into anything because I am so far behind. What if I can't go to college? I don't even know what the hell I want to become. The biggest question is if I will be able to amount to anything in my life. Will I actually have a career? Or will I have to go into "the family business" because of my financial desperation. I am freaking out. Have I basically fucked myself over because I am so damn lazy? It is going to be so hard graduating with all you guys knowing you are all going to great colleges that you have worked so hard for and will someday live a life you always dreamed and I envy. If I can't even make it through high school what makes me believe I can get to college or even the real world? I have so many questions and not a single answer. Or rather an answer I don't refuse and reject. All this and more was surging through my mind while standing in that room with 30 other potential artists. I broke down and left. I hope I have come to a realization that will change my ways. Maybe people can't change.

Bring it.

2005-11-11T06:35:32Z

Leave your name and:
1. I'll respond with something I like about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll name something we should do together
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me (or just me).
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll leave you a quote that is somehow appropriate to you
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST!

Those of you who comment don't forget that I put my name on yours last minute. I am expecting a reply! jk.

Of pomegrantes, in discouragement

2005-11-11T06:02:24Z

This has been one of the most eventful weeks of the school year. Ok, I know that isn't that big of a boast, but humor me. I have decided this entry should be full of emotion. So I am going to give you the best I can offer.

Well, on Tuesday, I had a really bad day because I was really worried that my mom might make us all move out of the house because of my older step-brother. To sum it up, Damien (my bro.) is 21, has no job, is dating a 15 year old, won't get off the hard-core drugs and alcohol he does, and pretty much mooches off his dad and my mom while being extremely disrespectful to everyone. So my mom wants to move if my step-dad doesn't kick Damien out. Later on Tuesday, at 1 AM, my brother got kicked out of the house.
Things havn't been the same since.
But the chaos isn't quite over. Daniella (Damien's whole sister, and my step-sis in Lubbock) calls us the next night in hysterics because apparently she and her mom got in a large fight and she wants to move in immediately. How conveniant! I was so worried about her for some time and now she is going to permanently move in. I feel that things are going to be much much better. It is the end of an era. Now for my renaissance.

The day after Damien's departure, I wake up not wanting to go to school after a night of that but get ready anyway. I attempt to leave but discover my friggen clutch on my car isn't working. Fuck. So my mom told me to stay home. I was on the computer all day and ate pomegranates and talked to Adriana. It was very lovely.

Theatre sucks.

My neighbor kidnapped my cats and gave them away. :(
i think i have a crush. i think i might just have confusion.
now for something funny:
http://www.potterpuppetpals.com/

^^^If you don't like that, you suck.

Well, today was a depressing day again. I am sorry I keep talking about all the sadness. But I just really hated everything and I couldn't get happy. It just got worse as the day went on. The only happy moment was when Jaime and I visited Deb. At this point, I think I am an all time low for this month and last month. But, that is for another entry.
Tomorrow I will go to Alex's with the people I care about and return the favor. Hopefully things will pick up from there.